Story i got from an email.

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I have a boyfriend who grew up with me
His name is Jin.

We went to a trip from a club & I found that I fell in love with
him.
Soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each
other in different ways.
I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there
were so many other girls.

To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just
another girl?

Jin, do you want to go watch a movie??I asked.

no, can't

Why? You need to study at home??I felt disappointment
grabbing me.

No?I am going to meet a friend

He was always like that.

He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word love only came out from my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard him say i love you?
before.
To us, there werent any anniversaries at all.
He didnt say anything from the first day and it continued
till 100 days?00days?
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a
doll, everyday, without fail. I dont know why?

Then one day?

Me: Um, Jin,

Jin: What dont drag, just say..

Me: I love you.

Jin: you?um, just take this doll and go home.

That was how he ignored my three words?and handed me
the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room,
one by one. There were many?

Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him,
and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.

But lunch passed, dinner passed?and soon the sky was
dark?he still didnt call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me
and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the
house.
Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.

Me: Jin?

Jin: Here take this?

Again, he handed me a little doll.

Me: What's this?

Jin: I didnt give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it
to you now. I'm going home now, bye.

Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?

Jin: Today? Huh?

I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday.
He turned around and walked away like nothing had
happen.

Then I shouted?

Wait!

Jin: You have something to say?

Me: Tell me, tell me you love me?

Jin: What?!

Me: Tell me

I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.

"I dont want to say that I love someone so easily, if you
are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.? "
That was what he said. Then he ran off.

My legs felt numb and I collapsed to the ground. He
didntwant to say it easily?
How could he?
I felt that maybe he's not the right guy for me?

After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just
crying.
He didntcall me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning
outside my house.
That'sow those dolls piled up in my room everyday

After a month, I got myself together and went to school.
But what made the pain resurface was that?I saw him on
a street with another girl
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed
me as he touched the doll
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my
room, and tears fell
Why did he gave these to me?
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls?
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him,
that?it was going to end
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?

I couldn�t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen
and joking around.

Soon, he held out the doll as usual

Me: I dont need it.

Jin: What?why?

I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.

Me: I dont need this doll, I dont need it anymore!! I dont
want to see a person like you again!

I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike
other days, his eyes very shaking.

im sorry?He apologized in a tiny voice.

He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll?

Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just
throw it away!!!

But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.

Then?

Honk~ Honk~

With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.

jin! Move! Move away!?I shouted

But he didnt hear me, he squatted down and picked up the
doll.

Jin, move!?

HONK~!!

Voom!?That sound, so terrifying.
Thats how he went away from me.
Thats how he went away without even opening his eyes to
say one word to me.

After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness
and the sadness of losing him
And after spending two months like a crazy person
I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we
started going out.

I remembered the days I spent with him and started to
count the days when we were in love

one two three

That was how?I started to count the dolls?
four hundred and eighty four?four hundred and eighty
five
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.

I hugged it tightly, then suddenly

i love you~, I love you~?

I dropped the dolls,shocked.

i?loveyou???

I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
i love you~ I love you~?

It cant be!

I pressed all the dolls?stomach as it piled on the side.

i love you~?

i love you~?

i love you~?
Those words came out non-stop.
Ilove you?
Why didnt I realize that?
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Y didn�t I realize that he love me this much?
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed its stomach,
that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.
It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much?

Do you know what today is? Weve been loving each
other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldnt
say I love you? Um?since I was too shy?If you
forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you?
everyday?till I die?Jo?I love you

The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked
god, why do I only know about all this now?
He cantbe by my side, but he loved me until his last
minute?
For that?and for that reason?to me?it became
courage?to live a beautiful life?

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Quite ok lah but the english abit sucky
must be translated or sth one